What I really want to say is that
     I don’t want to be the way I am.
What I really want to say is
     I want to be somebody successful.
What I really want to say is
     I want to commit suicide.
What I really want to say is I feel hurt inside.
What I really want to say is
     I don’t want to keep making the same
     mistakes. I’m too young. I’m only 14.
What I really want to say is I’m angry.

What I really want to say is, with you by my side,
I will be able to stand strong.

What I want to say is you might not understand what
I’m going through, but I’m sorry for what you had to live through when you were young.

What I want to say is that when you were young you were beat everyday. I don’t know how you could live through that and not do the same to me.

What I really want to say is I love you. I guess what I really meant to say was that you are my everything.

Dedicated to Mom