I Wonder
by a young woman, age 15I wonder what a happy family feels like.
I wonder if my friends actually care.
I wonder what it’s like to be responsible.
I wonder what my little brother is doing.
I wonder if there really is a God.
I wonder what God would say to me if he watched over me
like people say he does.
I wonder if my little brother is going to school.
I wonder if his parents are still dope addicts.
I wonder what my mom thinks of me.
I wonder if my mom knew everything that went on when I was little.
I wonder why my mom acted like she didn’t know.
I wonder if in the future I’ll still be with my boyfriend.
I wonder why people have addictions.
I wonder if my dad really cared when I was little.
I wonder if my dad is sober.
I wonder if he has a job.
I wonder what my dad thinks about.
I wonder if I will ever have a happy family.
I wonder if I will sit down and eat dinner and play games
with my family.